
Nina Berkhout was born and raised in Calgary, Alberta. After completing a degree in Classical Studies at the University of Calgary, she went on to the University of Toronto where she earned a MA in Museum Studies. She spent many years dancing classical ballet. Her first book,
Letters from Deadman's Cay is based on her experience living on a remote out-island in The Bahamas, where she worked to set up a community museum, collecting artifacts and recording the story of the island and its inhabitants.
This Way the Road, her second book, inspired by working at the Royal Ontario Museum has as its backdrop a blindingly white museum display on the Hindenburg Zeppelin.
Her most recent book,
Pas de Deux is "the story of one dancer's descent into madness and the catastrophic consequence it has on her relationship with the photographer assigned to the troupe."
Nina has kindly agreed to let me excerpt from her book
Pas de Deux. The beauty of having the blog, is that one is not required to write about the newest, the latest, but it is possible to luxuriate in those books, and poems that one has cherished for longer than a few weeks.
Pas de Deux was published in 2006, and as much as I admired it when it came out, my recent re-reading of it left me breathless. The language is intense, the story gripping. It's the sort of book that is so beautiful to read straight through - in that way it captures the experience of watching a ballet. Still, each page is a wonderful glimpse into this poetic universe, this ballet inspired by Tennyson's
Idylls of the King and
The Lady of Shalott.
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Few dancers remain uninjured.
Not since Swan Lake have I vied
for both leads, too difficult
to switch appearances between acts, hiding
exhaustion in an overblown transparency
of the round table set against a flat plain,
longer intermissions and incidents of light
dodging hazy surfaces.
Posture, octave, tempo and my body falling slowly,
with thick and heavy feet I burrow my pas seul
beneath the river's sediment.
Hold hold hold hold hold
keep holding.
(p. 17)
That cinnamon cat limping across the parking lot was my talisman.
I've let him go unmaimed and nameless
so we can make our getaway before I crinkle into a Juliet hag
partnered with twenty-year-old Romeos and they airbrush my face
and shudder, she should have retired long ago, look at her,
selfish ballerina, serves her right.
Would that the thick oily creams I lather on my skin return us
to the map of lesser striation. When we were happy sitting
across from each other at the table, eating almonds
from a glazed bowl.
(p.85)